Thursday, April 12, 2007

I don't like to think about the future...

I usually don't like to think about the future. I mean, lets face it, you can't predict what's gonna happen. But sometimes, the thing you didn't expect is the thing you really wanted after all. Maybe the best thing to do is just stop trying to figure out where you're going and just enjoy where you're at.

If only this was so easy is my response. I'm a pivital point in my life right now and I wish to be anywhere but here sometimes. About to be a college graduate with the never ending question facing me....What are you going to do after college? It never ends really. In high school they ask you what you're going to do after you graduate. Then you get to college and they ask you what you're going to school for. Then you pick a major and they ask what kind of job you wnat to get with that major. Then the day comes when you wear your cap and gown and you have no clue what to answer when the mic is thrust in your face. I never thought job hunting would be the one of the hardest things I ever did in my life. I should get paid for this. The worst part is, nothing is on the front burner or in the pantry. I have no prospects at all and every dream compnay I would love to work for isn't hiring.

The saying "don't worry it will all work out" must have been from a profit who knew it would because for the normal person, it's not so easy to swallow. Of course you say "yeah it probably will" but in the back of your mind you're screaming, "How The Hell Do You Know?!" Of course I want them to be right...I'd even let them sit me down and say to my face I told you so. But right now it is just depressing to try to find a job. It makes you wonder why the heck they push school so hard if you can't do anything once you get out of it. I didn't spend four years getting this degree for me to be told it's worthless.

I guess there really is nothing I can do about it but keep trying. There's another slogan for you, Don't Give Up. I guess if I at least went on some interviews or something it would be better but all I get is sorry, we have no position emails. I may have my standards too high (which there is no other time I've been told to lower my standards by my father) but I want a job that pertains to my major. I don't want to have spent how much money on going to be a clerk in Old Navy. Something better come along soon or I might just lose it!