Friday, June 27, 2008

a nice change of events

Remember how I complained about CUSA yesterday, well last night was like 150% better! We didn't wait in any lines....ever! There still were a lot of people there but nothing like the mass congestion that was Wednesday night! Miranda Lambert was absolutely awesome and Dierks Bentley was really good too. We got our chairs a lot closer last night and we still couldn't see them on the stage. That stage must just be huge. It will be interesting to see what Saturday night will be like. We're not going to tonight and fighting the 10 million people who are going to Kenny Chesney. We saw his semi's last night arrive, good enough for me! So a nice change of events from one night to the next!

Thursday, June 26, 2008

A little disappointed.....

We went to Country USA last night and needless to say, it was nuts! The exit ramp to take was closed so we had to go up one more and back track; which actually ended up being better because there was not as much traffic coming from that way. So we get in and park, wait in line again to get into the grounds and finally get in! We went and found a spot and put our chairs down and waited for Sugarland to start! They were suppose to start at 9:30...well 9:30 came and went. Then 9:45, then 10:00, along comes 10:15, 10:30, ohh look, 10:45...and next thing you know they finally come out at 11:00!!! I was so freakin' pissed! It wouldn't be a big deal normally, if it was like a Friday/Saturday night but it was Wednesday and I still have two days of work ahead of me! They did play their obvious songs so that was cool to hear those. And we were so far back that we couldn't see them....they looked about 4 inches tall. (the funny thing is we thought we were close. The stage is very deceiving because it's so tall so it looks big like you're really close....we were not close) They played until midnight and that was when we decided to leave because we wanted to get out of there and make it home before the sun came up!

We found our car fine and then it was trying to get out of the lot. Last night confirmed to me that the human race is pretty dumb. There were two lanes of traffic going out, because obviously no one was driving in and this car in front of us tries to like make a u-turn and get into the lanes. If she would have backed up and gone, it would have been fine, instead she goes like an inch every five minutes and tries to get in. It was so frustrating! So I backed up (reverse! What a novel thing!) and went around her, and started in the second lane again. Only to go about 20 yards and have some retard stick half her car in the lane to try to get to the opposite lane instead of just pulling into the first lane and keeping both lanes going!!!!!! I was so freakin' pissed it was not funny.

Finally we get the two lanes going again...and these chicks walk right down the lane....in the road! Then they turn and walk in the grass, so I try to go by them, and they turn into the road again! And to top it off, they give me dirty looks and yell "Watch out! Walking here!" I wanted to roll down my window and strangle the chick! It was a night I was ready to have end and I'm tired this morning.

Day One of CUSA, not so hot!

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Thankful for the 4th

I watched the flag pass by one day,
It fluttered in the breeze.
A young Marine saluted it,
And then he stood at ease..

I looked at him in uniform
So young, so tall, so proud.
With hair cut square and eyes alert
He'd stand out in any crowd.

I thought how many men like him
Had fallen through the years.
How many died on foreign soil
How many mothers' tears?

How many pilots' planes shot down?
How many died at sea?
How many foxholes were soldiers' graves?
No, freedom isn't free.

I heard the sound of Taps one night,
When everything was still,
I listened to the bugler play
And felt a sudden chill.

I wondered just how many times
That Taps had meant 'Amen,'
When a flag had draped a coffin.
Of a brother or a friend

I thought of all the children,
Of the mothers and the wives.
Of fathers, sons and husbands
With interrupted lives.

I thought about a graveyard,
At the bottom of the sea.
Of unmarked graves in Arlington.
No, freedom isn't free .


I hope you all remember what July 4th is really about and stop to thank the soldiers who are keeping us free. Your courage and strength are unmatchable and because of you we're safe.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

the last time...

My last session with Hot S. tonight. Man three weeks goes fast...I'm a little depressed about it! I hope my results are good...and I hope I can keep up this regimen. Wait, I need to keep it up...and it' s not too bad after all.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

it figures

Why is it that practically every guy I've ever liked has had a girlfriend? Take a certain someone in my life, we'll call him Hot S. It's more of an infatuation with him now, I'll be honest; but don't all relationships kind of start out like that? I have a crush on him, I like that better then infatuation. Ok so I have a big crush on Hot S. and it's not getting any better since I saw him last night out at a baseball game.
It was his birthday, he's 26. And he was there with his girlfriend. Figures doesn't it? She was pretty, not what I was expecting, but what was I really expecting? I guess some knock-out gorgeous girl and just because this girl wasn't I shouldn't say she was not pretty. She was cute, skinny of course. I mean could a personal trainer have a fat girlfriend? And can any guy have a fat g/f without getting made fun of? Probably not many.
So he was there, and we talked and it was a good time. But all I could keep thinking was how lucky that girl was. How lucky to have Hot S. loyalty and attention and affection. I'm jealous...yes I am. I go to meet with him today. Will my crush end? No time in the near future, that's for sure.
When will a guy choose me, only me like that? And will they be like Hot S. or like me. If I was a guy, I probably wouldn't date myself either.

(I thought I finally met a guy last night that was just nice and liked me. Today, all he can talk about is business. That went down the drain fast. I wish I didn't get excited for things so quickly. That would require my brain not to work though and that's not going to happen.)


My secret: I'm sacred someone will love me like that, and I won't be able to love them back. Or I'll always be looking for someone different to love.
My other secret: I'm scared no one will ever love me like that.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

One Week Left....

Only one week left of my W.R.F. fitness study! Its been really fun and I got to meet some great people. And not to mention Hot S. That was worth it right there! We have three sessions this week and then I'm definitely going to keep going. It's so hard with my schedule, because I have a social life, but I really need to keep going and it's nice to have a schedule like that. I would like to keep meeting with S., my trainer, but I'm not sure how much money or anything that is. We'll have to look into that.


We played softball last night against the crazy team. We're in the bottom division of all the leagues b/c we really just joined for fun. And this team is like hardcore softball players. They wear sliding shorts and the full on softball gear. And they are undefeated, giving each other signs and it's just nuts. They rock everyone they play and it's pretty dumb that they are in our league but whatever, we can't change that. So we ended up losing but it was pretty fun. I sucked at batting but whatever...hopefully I'll get better. Next Monday, we're winning!!


I still haven't heard if I got the apt. I put the money down on so I am just going to assume that I did. I don't want to have to start looking again...no way jose! I already did that once, I'm in for good now. I had to plan my budget and darnit, it looks like shopping excursions and partyin' are weekends need to be held to a minimum. I need to be saving some money so I eventually can get a house and not have to pay for rent. I got some new furniture this past weekend when my mom and I went shopping. They had a floor model brown leather couch and loveseat with recliner's in them on clearance b/c they had some scratches in them! I could care less about a little scratch if I get $2,000 off! So I got them and I'm set with that now! Now, if only I had somewhere to put them!?!?!

Thursday, June 12, 2008

as much as I get frustrated, I do believe it

I seriously do believe that everything happens for a reason and most things will turn out alright in the end. However, in the heat of certain moments, I do not believe this and swear up and down and across that it's God's plan to screw me over. I think sometimes it takes us years and years to see why a certain decision went one way and not the other but eventually we'll figure it out. I also think that it's our adaptability that allows us to flow through tough times and make them ok. I think if something doesn't go one way, and we have to go with it, we can just make ourselves like the situation and make it work.

This is all stemming from the fact that I was so nervous for the cardio. program I was going to do with my trainer. I mean I get nervous over simple things, and this was making me real nervous. So I get there yesterday and he's says, "today we'll do the cardio, and tomorrow the legs" and I almost threw up. We went to the room and did the cardio and I made it through and didn't die so i was happy. And I think that was God's way of springing it on me so I couldn't sit and get nervous about if for two more days and I just had to do it then and there! And I guess I'm ok with that for certain things. It's just going to be a matter of time before I convince myself that it will all be ok.

Oh and another tip, I just keep telling myself that eventually it will be over. It won't last all night, eventually we'll be done and I can leave....that helps too!

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

workout numero four dunzzo

so i did arms last night with my trainer....and they aren't as sore today as they were the first time. We tried to do three rounds and man, my arms just like quit! I hate it! I got so frustrated and I even told him that I was mad! He kept telling me not to get frustrated that it takes time but it just gets me pissed when I'm trying so hard and my arms just seriously won't go anymore!

Hopefully I'm not like the worst person he has or anything b/c that would just suck! I actually hope he enjoys working with me, because I enjoy staring at him...ha ha He did ask about a fellow co-worker the other day though, which I was not too happy about. Not that it was a big deal or anything. Like I said, if he was tall, I'd be in a world of hurt because I wouldn't be able to concentrate I'd be so in love!

Wish me luck tonight as I go to do the bottom half workout!

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

casual......

Casual has seem to come up a lot this week. First off, all the bosses are gone so it's casual week!! YEAH!!! I'm stoked! Had a super weekend with my family too. We went shopping down to Pleasant Prairie and I got some awesome deals and spent a lot of money! It seems I always hit it big at the outlets or get like one thing. Well this weekend was one of the big ones. It was fun though.

Side Note: I work out again today with Hot S. - Arms.....yikes!!! Let's hope it goes well!! Only 6 sessions left! I'm super nervous again....

Casual also came up in conversation. This girl at work, B.T. has been having casual sex with another guy here at work. It's all fine and dandy until she confronted him and said,"look, I want a relationship and it doesn't seem like you want to give me one so either tell me you only like me for sex, or ask me on a date." Well he did neither but you know girls; we just can't get over someone in a week, sometimes month, sometimes year. I don't know what it is about us but when you see that guy again, your heart speeds up and you get kind of giddy and you just need to find any excuse to talk to him. And it seems like every girl has one....that one guy that no matter what you will never get over. Whenever you see them it's the same feelings, whether five days or five months since the last time you saw them. I have one, I know my roommates had them. They say go out and find someone new to replace them....well that's fine and dandy but it's not always that easy to go out and just get a new guy. So in conclusion, stay strong girls if you're in this situation. You can do it and if he is like this guy at work, you are so much better then him! Do right for yourself and just keep telling yourself you don't need him....which you don't!!!
Now it comes to practicing what I preach.

Thursday, June 05, 2008

update!

Well my workout last night wasn't too bad. Now it wasn't easy but I really got a lot out of it. Good thing I don't have to lift my arms over my head at work b/c....well I wouldn't be able to!
S. and I did all upper body and he showed me how to do all the machines for it. We did a round of 15 reps and then another round of 15 reps. The second round sucked! I could barely finish/didn't finish some of the machines with the 15 reps on the 2nd time! My arms were shaking like crazy and I was trying to get them all the way up and I just couldn't! I felt like a fool but today we shared war stories over lunch and a lot of people couldn't finish the 15 reps the second time around. It's one of those things where it hurts but it feels good b/c you know you did something productive for the pain.

After I did a Body Sculpt class with B.T. and it was pretty good too. However my legs are a little tight today and I have lower body with S. tonight so he might be mad at me. ha ha Let's hope it goes well! I'm rather nervous to do the squats he decided we're going to do...I just hope it goes well!

(Remember how I said S. was hot..well he's freakin' Hot! He played baseball in college, he has facial hair which I love, and his shoulders and hands are gorgeous!...which are my favs...and he's really nice. I just hope he doesn't think like 'man, what did I get myself into with this chick!?" I do try hard and I hope he doesn't dread when I come in. He's easy to make conversation with which is nice. He loves my hometown, exact quote and I was surprised he even knew where it was. Good thing he's not tall....another fav....or I'd have a major crush! not like I don't already!!!)


Ohh and softball got canceled the other night due to rain! No game!

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

my first day!!!

So my training for at the fitness center didn't go bad the first day. I like it there, everyone's really nice and helpful. And they have a personal flat screen tv on all cardio equipment! Nice!

However, my trainer is hot...yeah you heard me. The one thing a girl does not want is a hot trainer. I would have taken a girl trainer any day but nope, I get the hot one, S. Dangit!
Tonights my first official workout with him. He says were going to do a lot in the weight room which I'm glad about b/c I thought he was going to like watch me on the treadmill or something. I just have my fingers crossed that it continues to go well! Wish me luck!

Monday, June 02, 2008

feel the burn.....

I start my workout session at W.R.F. today!! Yikes...I'm a little nervous, let's hope it goes well. Update tomorrow!

Bare bones softball team tonight! We'll see if we can keep up the winning record to fall to .500!